Back in the Game

Nothing like a real honest conversation to make you open your eyes. Knowing that you have a person in the world that you can tell them anything and they wont ever judge is as lucky as you get. In moments when I feel like nothing is going as it should I lose my perspective in life. Dont worry, it sounds worst than it really is. It just becomes easier for the negative to overshadow the positive. Its ironic how in a day of thinking and at the same time trying to strop rationalizing certain feeling everything seems clearlier now. I know that probably the previous sentence didn't make much sense, but maybe if you have ever felt the way I do, I am sure you get the idea of what I am talking about. Luckily things make sense now, sort of. I really dont know what was about those couple of conversations that trigger something to make me stop complaining about things that didn't even matter. I realize I had to much crap in my mind and I had to let go of it. Sometimes over analyzing every single detail of our lifes just makes things more complicated, and I think I got carried away. The funny thing is I've never done that before, I had always been more of the carefree kind of person. And I'm still that person, but I guess that for a moment I forgot about it. Now Im back to my old self, not that I ever stop being me but you get the point. Now I understand somethings in life can't be rationalize and you just have to go with it. And the things that can be rationalize, well they all have a solution. May not be the solution you want or the fastest or the simplest, but it exists which at the end of the day is what matters. The truth is that I let insanity take over me for a while and lost I bit of control of what I wanted of my life. Today more than ever I know what I want in my life, for the most part. And I know I am in the right track although is not exactly how I picture it. But it has turn it out for the best. TIme has come to put those goal on motion again, not that they ever went away, but for a little while I let crazy thoughts and emotions push them to the back of my head. Literally I felt like I had to bare my soul to the most important people in my life, to myself and now to these blog to see the big picture again. It was worth it, and just in time for baseball season ha.

Roller Coaster Life

Here I am again. Last couple of weeks could be described as being a freaking roller coaster. For starters getting a week off from school after just 2 weeks of starting the semester was fun but feeling that I had so much time did not turn out to be a very productive few days. Extreme weather, cold or hot, is just not ideal for the mind.

Then Super Bowl weekend was awesome. Free Faith Hill and The Pretenders concert, and when I say free I mean it. Didn't have to pay for parking, food or drinks. Standing for 6 hours was a low price to pay for that night. Since the concert was part of CMT Crossroads series, we (Caleigh and I) were on national television. Not to mention that I got to see Jason Witten. He is in my top 3 of favorite Cowboys of all time. I took a picture and even got his autograph. Given that I didn't have paper I gave him my texas i.d. to sign. Caleigh was confused asking me why are you giving me your i.d. give something else. I had nothing except a 20dlrs bill and my credit card. I can live without my i.d. for a couple of weeks while I get a new one. Needed to update my adress anyways ha. Finally on Sunday we went to the NFL Experience. Its like a football museum with games. I just felt like a kid, thats always a good feeling. And it ended good with the Packers taking the Lombardi trophy. Not a real Green Bay Packers fan but close friends are big fans so I know that made them happy. I couldnt stand the Steelers beings champs again, sorry Dad. I know someone else who is a Steelers 'fan' but, well lets just say they might have to change teams soon, just saying it will help. Honestly, the only thing that could made this weekend better is if the Cowboys had been playing on Sunday and of course bringing a 6 championship! Guess have to wait another year for that!

Then there is the job situation. There is no situation really is more like the lack of one. At this point I got a call back from only one of the internships I applied for only to be told that they are going to keep my resume in file, since the internship had to be put on hold. For a moment there I thought finally! but no! So Caleigh and I decided to make money on our own. She has done a couple of websites in the past and I had done sales, the perfect combo! Also she has the new Canon T2i rebel, hence we can do photography and video work. Finally we are adding Social Media to the combo. Is still in the process of getting everything ready like logo, business cards, media kit but before we know it we hope to be making money and make the business grow.

Theres just so much I can write here. I mean theres so much I can share with the world, right? The truth is just I've been thinking a lot, making sure that the decisions I've made in the past and continue making are actually taking me down the right path to accomplish the goals I have set for myself. All this free time just makes me mind wonder of, somehow right now as I write these the only thing in my mind is menudo and I have not even been drinking. Sometimes I wish I could just know what I am supposed to do or how things are going to turn out, but then it will take the fun out of life. Is the same reason I like gambling: I never know what card I'm getting or where the ball is going to land in the roulette; is just an emotion I cant describe, I just love it. At the end what you loose doesn't compare to what you win.

Icy road to the Super Bowl

Over two decades after being born, and having lived in 4 different cities on Feb 1, 2011 I finally got to experience a REAL winter storm. For the second day in a row I'm basically stuck in the apartment, classes have been cancel, the temperature is below freezing, the roads are covered in ice and in top of it we keep getting blackouts that can last from 15-45minutes. In the bright side of things now I know that I can survive real bad cold weather. Perhaps I need to learn how to appropriately drive in icy roads. Anyways since I real cant go anywhere, and yesterday I did absolutely nothing I think today I should do some homework. It also seems like a good idea to do some work in important projects: commercial and business.
It is necessary to mention Caleigh's heroic act in "rescuing" me and helping other people in our 3 hour long adventure in the road. Truth be told I didn't need to be rescued since I was in my apartment with food and a heater, not in an accident in some road. I guess you could say I needed to be rescue because I couldn't get out of my apartment's parking lot to make it to her place. An average 40 minute round trip drive turn into almost 3 hours. Not only due to speed but because people cars kept getting stuck in the middle of the street. Luckily Caleigh had salt in the car  and actual experience driving in icy roads. She helped people move their cars out of the way and get traffic going once again. Before getting to her apartment we stopped at Tom Thumb to get groceries. The parking lot was like an ice skating rink. Important to mention I suck at skating, any kind of it. It took me forever to make it inside the store. In the way out Caleigh suggested I should hold on to her waist instead of walking. Ended up being a good/fun idea!
The weather is still bad and it looks like it won't get better until Saturday. Honestly I don't mind the weather I'm kind of liking it. Note to self: buy better gloves and a jacket asap. The main reason I want to be able to get out on the street is to go to the NFL experience theme park, and go out to Cowboys stadium for all the Super Bowl action! I'm sure the NFL thought there will be no weather problems by having a Super Bowl in North Texas. Well, Mr. Goodell now you know Texas weather is bipolar!

P.S. I just wish this snow will be better so that I could build a snowman. I feel like the only way I could have fun right now is if my dog Maggie was here and I had a sled.

Confession

This is the deal: I'm 23 years-old and my best friend just told me that I need to get some medication or start talking about stuff instead of letting it all build up inside. There is no way I'm going on medication, I just will not take them even if I buy them. I'm not sure how I feel about therapy. Not quite ready to start talking to stranger about my life. So I have opted for some self-therapy. Not long ago I used to keep a journal and updated it often. Then something called college happen and I started doing it less and less, I really don't know why. Now that I had to start a blog due to my class I decided I should keep a personal blog too. Now, to whoever may read this, don't get excited I'm not going to tell the world every single aspect of my life! I'll start writing in my journal again for those personal details.

Some things you should know, that I did not include in my About Me section:

• Sarcastic
• Die hard Cowboys Fan, Like all sports in general
• Loves playing Roulette and Black Jack
• Frozen Margaritas are my favorite drink
• Love Movies
• Enjoy reading a good book
• Every now and then I'll write a blog in spanish
• I want a puppy
• I have always wanted to open my own organization to help children around the world

Now you know more about me and the reason behind finally starting my own blog. It may not make sense and it will jump from all kinds of different topics, but I promise it will be 100% honest.